My wife would probably say I am being over-sensitive at the moment or it could just be because she is annoying ;) I just don't like orange squash! It is just boring!
Anyway this whole cutting my medicine in half doesn't appear to be going well. I've prepared some (it is like I am on GBBO) but my halves don't really like look halves.
So back to work tomorrow, and as I am taking my new medication every other day tomorrow is my second day of having my new medication and I am doing overtime and it is Monday. It has all the potential to be a mess.
I mean nobody likes Mondays (unless you have no job or are on holiday or if your job involves naked ladies of a certain age) let alone Mondays when I know the withdrawal with my medication will start to properly kick in. But it is just a case of pushing through I guess. I was quite positive as the whole feeling tired thing seemed to have stopped for a few days but it came back with a vengeance this afternoon, so I have stayed awake even though I could probably fall asleep standing up.
I try and take each day as it comes, but seeing my brain likes to fuck me. All I can think about is that it is going to be six months before my new medication starts to have any sort of affect on me. Six long months. Fuck man. That is going to take some will power to smash through that.
But overall my weekend has been pretty good. I mean if you didn't know I was going through what I am going through at the moment, you would think I was okay. But I guess that sums up depression. You can't see it and you have to put a face on.
I mean when you are at work and people ask how you are, you have to answer "yeah I am fine" I think if I actually answered honestly nobody would come near me!
But my wife cooked loads of stuff last night and I must say she has conned me all the time we have been together as she said she couldn't cook. BUT SHE CAN AND IF I HAD A DEAD WALNUT FACE LIKE MARY BERRY I'd be telling her how awesome her cooking is.
Anyway hope everyone enjoys their Sunday evening.
I'll be back tomorrow to let you all know how my
Glenn
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